Khudgarz...

Usey khush karne ke chakkar mein maine usey iss hadd tak dukhi kar diya ke ab wo bhaag jaana chaahti hain meri parchhaayi se bhi... Darta hoon ke ek parchhayi ka hi rishta toh bach gaya tha ab shaayad wo bhi na ho... Mar raha hoon main haule haule... Kya keh diya, kya kar diya maine jis se wo dukhi ho gayi, toot gayi... Haan main hi toh kaaran hoon uske dukh ka, uski takleef ka... Main itna matlabi kaise ho gaya, kyun mujhe uski tadap nahi dikhi... Kyun main khud ke baare mein sochne laga... Pata nahi shaayad iss liye ke ek uski hassi hi thi jo meri ho sakti thi... Wo bhi chhin liya maine... Jaane anjaane mein main khudgarz ho gaya... Maafi maangna chaahta hoon par ab shaayad wo mauka bhi na miley... Par tum keh toh sakti thi mujhe, ehsaas dila sakti thi mere jyaadtiyo'n ka... Kaha kyun nahi tumne, kyun sehti rahi meri jyaadtiyo'n ko... Kyun tum bhi ye prove karne mein lagi rahi main kabhi bhi kisi ko bhi khush nahi rakh sakta... Sach kaha tha kisi ne main kisi ka bhi nahi ho sakta, dosti toh bahot badi baat hain main kisi bhi rishtey ke laayak nahi... Aansoo'n kyun nikal rahe hain mere, kyun nahi dil samajhta hain ke ab uska bhaanda foot gaya hain, ab rone dhone ke naatak se kya hoga... Chali toh wo pehle hi gayi thi ab toh usne apni parchhayi bhi ghaseet kar le gayi apne saath... Ek ehsaas tha wo bhi uske saath ho liya... Main itna khudgarz ho gaya hoon ke ab bhi usi raastey par khada sehsa iss intezaar mein hoon ke tum jaatey huye jo parchhayi aur ehsaas apne saath liye jaa rahe ho usey shaayad lauta ke mere paas bhej do...